not sure if anyone will see this, or care, but hi! this is my blog, i'll just talk about whatever's on my mind :)

so found this online game called roblox, surprised i havent heard about it before- well, i've seen thumbnails on youtube but i never really thought about it :P, unlike the other games i play this one's got a chat feature? sounds pretty cool, i could use someone to talk to other than my parents. downloading it rn! :D

update: turns out roblox came before tf2 by about a year i think, dude im so effin stupid omg DX

so i started playing roblox for a while! really addicting ngl, i talked to peopl! no friends yet but i'll find one eventually! here's a pic of my avatar rn! sadly i am bald T_T

keeping on finding so many games in here! thought it'd be boring cuz of the graphics but they got so many genres! it's limited but i think my favorite would just be the PvP games lol, anyway got a hat! finally! i can cover my bald head T_T someone friended me too! THIS IS AWSUUMMMM!!!

turns out my friend was a bot account |:(

hung out with this guy named brandon! hes actually rlly cool to hang out with ngl, we played for hours and hours! thought i could outmatch him in sfoth but he's been playing longer than me so i died, a LOT X_X kinda deserved it for being a bit cocky lo, sadly he had to go for dinner, but he gave me a friend request! :D

took a while but i finally got to have my dream outfit! just in time too! now i could stay on the computer past midnight playing games just cuz it's tradition, HAHA! sucks that i cant go outside, but who carez, fireworks scare me anyway XP, goodbye 2013 hello 2014!!!

dont rlly kno what to add here tbh, yesterday i havent really done anything but lay in bed. i can move around, just didnt feel like it. no homeschooling today so yeah. am i just being lazy? soldiers arent lazy. i'll just rest and forget about it and maybe play some more after studying. atleast i get to listen to music. shout out to the song "this is war"by thirty seconds to mars.

decided to message brandon, he hasnt responded tho, maybe he's busy with actual school :P still dont feel like playing so im just browsing thru youtube videos. been finding these videos talking about roblox hackers tho, it's not surprising honestly, the program can be a bit buggy. i dont think they place proper security on this thing.

i keep seeing these videos of "c00lkidd incidents" and i can. stop. WATCHING. call me weird but it honestly really fascinates me. almost everyone knows about this guy by now, and it's just cuz he screws up servers to the point of unplayability! ohhh man, i would have so much fun if i were him. i kinda wanna be a hacker someday. i still wanna be an army soldier but. maybe hacking could be a part time hobby. plus it's more possible anyway.

did some research and turns out the thing team c00lkidd uses to hack is called the c00lgui! im gonna get my hands on it soon,im downloading the programs and code right now! i'll keep you all updated on my progress! i think i could create a youtube channel off of this!

finished setting up my channel! now i can post updates there! oh man im so excited!!!! i could get famous off of this! i dont need to use this blog that much anymore :), the yt link should prob be on the link buttons if my calculations are correct, heheheh X)

stupid. effing. code. stupid. effing. code. stupid. effing. code. stupid. effing. code. STUPID. EFFING. CODE. STUPID. EFFING. CODE-

bradon's still offline, maybe he's got alot to do. or maybe he forgot about me, he's got alot of friends so yeah. it sounds so stupid to rely on someone i found on roblox to keep me company, i dont know why i got attached to him in less than a day, jeez maybe i am a loser, i see why'd he wouldnt talk to me, i need to stop acting sad around people, i wanna make friends via actual social media apps but it always scares me, atleast with online games people only focus on the aspect of playing and having fun with others, the chat is kinda just a bonus to bond and talk with random people. with social media the whole POINT is to TALK. last time i went on people said i was annoying cuz i couldnt keep my mouth shut, so i probably shouldnt talk that much. sorry you had to see this. not like anyone will see this anyway. atleast the people on youtube like my stuff.

i GOTTA stop getting attached to strangers :/

sorry i haven't updated in a while :\ i made a new friend! in a... really unconventional way. their name's c00lkidd0? i thought they were the actual 007n7 or one of the hackers but they said they weren't... i dont get it. well, they do seem nice, and they said they'd let me use the code for the gui now. i think i'll be okay! :)

im surprised we've been consistently playing together for a while now. im not complaining, it's nice actually. we even decorated her place! we put all the stuff we like, it was fun :) i dont know what they are. why they talk like that. if they're real or not. i believe she's some sort of malware or virus? she has so much personality and actually listens to me, why me? we connect over so much. am i getting attached to a virus? and ai??? wait- what am i even thinking????

i love my friend but he needs to quit effing up my code. he keeps saying its cuz he doesnt feel like it??? i dont get it. he doesnt even do anything with it they just start messing it up! WAT DA HECCKKK!!!!!!!! i was just starting to get popular too :(

ik i got a friend now. one that listens. plays. talks. to me. but i still feel lonely. am i ungrateful? i see them. but i dunno if they see... me. i mean they do but... fuck its hard to explain. WHY ARE FEELINGS LIIKE THIS. is anything real nowadays?

fat. fat. i feel fat. i rlly need to lose weighttt man. i cant even walk outside. i bet if people saw me they'd cringe. atleast c00lkidd0 cant see me irl. but i dont know if thats a good thing.

dear... whoever's reading this probably not gonna post ever again. both here and on my channel. i dont think you'll care anyway. i dont think i'll be missed. not like i deserve to be missed anyway. thankyou for reading. goodbye.